It has been one year since my "mental breakdown". It has been quite a year. I have gone through so many different experiences, and it has been a rocky year for sure. I cannot believe where I am today though. And had anyone asked me if I ever imagined being where I am now, I would honestly say not now, not so quickly. I think looking back and because of my depression, I just felt hopeless. I did not think I would ever be a successful person. I was feeling the worst I had ever felt.
I really took the time to get healthy again. It was difficult to start. I am still the kind of person that usually has alot on the go. I usually have a number of projects going on at once. I am a genuine "people" pleaser. But the most important person I was forgetting to please, was myself.
I never took the time to "stop and smell the roses" as they say. I ran my self into the ground, and I pulled alot of people down with me.
When I look back to this time last year. It is crazy to think how unstable I was. How sad I was. The level of anxiety I had. I was really a mess. And without the strength from some very important people in my life....friends, family, and one particular person who really was my rock through it all...I really would not be where I am today. I am so grateful I took the time to educate my self and others on mental illness. That I took the time to speak to medical professionals, seek the right treatment for me, and just take time for ME.
Today, I am now running a very successful business. Krystie Ann - Makeup Artist. I also some days during the week work at a fantastic spa and salon in Barrie Spyce Spa & Hair Studio. I have a fantastic connection with my family and friends. A loving little puppy! (Lexi) and the most important things: my health and happiness!
No doubt, I have lost some very very important people on the way, and there have been some major changes in my life some for the good, and some for the not so good. And I still do srtuggle with my anxiety everyday. But I am still seeking the treatment that I need, and have really learned that everything happens for a reason. You learn something from every situation you go through in life, and grow as a person. I also live by my all time favourite saying by German philosopher and classical philologist Friedrich Nietzsche
"What does not kill you, makes you stronger."
It is such a powerful saying that I have always lived by.
I really have to thank all those people that stood by me and especially the ones that are still there for me today. I love you all SO much. And truly appreciate the love and support you have shown me. I really am blessed.
